You are not alone // Blogmas day 8

Hey guys xo

I was in my YouTube subscription box and saw last week it was mental health week. I had no idea so I though why not do a blog post about it as sometimes I know it can get too much and I'm always here if you need someone to talk too.

I myself don't have a anxiety or depression I may have performce anxiety but the times I have to get up and speak is rarely, but if I can do sometime to help that's all that matters. Loving with a mental health Disorder is not embrassing or doesn't make you any less of a person it makes you you and that's great. I know people with a anxiety may not even want to leave there house or talk to anyone and I know sometimes it may be hard but just step outside even if it's in the back garden for five minutes. As they say fresh air is the best medicine. I know if I've been upset or was crying if I step outside I feel so much better. Even if manage to come out of your room for even five minutes I'm proud of you, if you talk to new people I'm proud of you. No matter how big your acomplishmnet is big or small I'm proud of you.

Today nearly everyone will have some form of mental health disorder in there life amd the main thing I need to point out is never say you have anxiety or depression to sound cool or to get attetion. You may get attetion but not the kind you want. If you have a MHD then people asking do you need help or are okay makes you feel better and knowing that people care is amazing but when you lie about it people will believe you have it.

I've always been the shy girl who would be so shy to talk to people but when it came to public speaking I was fine but now although I'm a bit shy around people and some people I never know the write thing to say I get so panicked when I have to speak infront of the people. Around two months ago for English we were reading a play and we had to do scences infront of the class and I was so nervous, I had to pick a place in the room and just look at window but I did it and i was happy. And just a couple of weeks ago in English we had to write a persuasive speech and read it out and that was the scariest thing I did ever. Before I went on my hands were shaking and when I went up my heart was beating so hard, had butterflies but bad and was trying so hard to get the words out but I did it. And after I went on I was happy and in the end my grade was an A. The fact I was so nervous I made sure my speech was good and practiced a lot and it altough people didn't relaise it when I had finished and everybody clapped it made me relaise they didn't care that I could of messed up. So if your ever worried about anything like that just remember that people are going to be supportive and you never know might end up being just as nervous as you. As I said you are not alone.

Love you xo

Lauren